OMG!
i think i fallen in love with him le.
T.T
One sided love is not good.
Only i am the one who miss him.
Only i am the one who think of him.
Only i am the one.
2NE1 ugly is saying my appearance.
BaekJiYoung that woman is saying my feeling.
So i love this two songs.
Is liking cm a habit or i love him already?
Seeing Christine and Alex together,
i also want with cm together.
but who will like an ugly girl?
haixx.
i think he never think of me before.
i think he never remember me as his friend before.
i think he already forget of having me this friend.
How can i get near to him?
these days , i been dreaming of being together with him.
Even now. But thats not going to happen.
It is only my wishful dreams.
Should not think about it!
Haizzz.

Haishhhh!
Why am i always so unlucky??
Going for this and that?
Damn suay sia!
Wahleu , damn upset and frustrated when i first look at the message!
Why not others but me?
Somemore need wear full u.
They think wearing full u,
we will look prettier??
I dont want to go!
I dont want!!
Why do i have to go?
It is just badges , why must wear full u
go there take?
Haixxxx, SIANZ!
Nvm, after this... can rest for awhile!
That hcm ar!
Wahlao, dont know what is going on his mind.
Making me to suffer is what you like , is it?
I am asking you?
Made me suffer , you love it?
If not, then stop your actions , can?
Firstly, you ignored me for a few days.
then you come near me,
then you talk to others girls to make me jealous.
It is always like that.
Please... STOP!
AND CAN YOU PLEASE STOP
GIVING ME FALSE HOPE?
the more hope i had ,
the more disappointment i will have..
I know , you wont like me.
Then , made me stop liking you.
Thank you , i will be grateful of that.
i am sick and tired of you already.
Now , i am only focusing on STUDIES and FTISLAND.
Haiiiiixx x , i did not include sjab ,
yet i still have to go back.
Forget it , since it is like that,
then i will do as followed..
T.T!!

HelloHello ~~~!
I quarrelled with WH two days ago.
It is a serious one.
It is stilll etched on my mind!!
I cannot believe..
She is my friend , yet she still push the blame to me
when i am not in the wrong!
I can forgive her now,
but next time , i wont!
Now, i am still angry, but i cant show her!
Haixxx..
But i love Candy right now!
I hope she will stay beside me forever!!
She and i will stay together study after school.
Thats is my happy time.
Eating with her , walking with her , studying with her!!
I love Candy mama!!
Woahhh...
Lesbian sooooooonnn...
CM and i are really getting further.
Last time , he will still talk to me.
Now , he dont even come near me..
Haxiiiix.
But now i feel harris is so cute!
Scared i will like him , NOOO WAYYY!
Cm reallyy.
He dont even look my classmate.
How am i going to confess?
Wahleu , why am i always choosing the hard one??
I am going to aim the best for all my subjects except Amathss!
CM ar , please lar!
I feel like you are ignoring me.
I dont even dare looking into your eyes.
Today you went to weehiang's table so suddenly,
i dont even dare to move...!!!
Waaahhhh..
I really want to be myself in front of you,
but i cant.
Today morning ,
candy say if you have a crush for someone for more than 4months,
that means you love him already ,
then i look at cm for a moment..
Waah , he even twiiter also never go!
SIANZ,
hope i can get a good results in Prelim and N level,
so you will talk to me.
Hope so!
Love ya!!
You always make my heart flutter ,
and for a moment ,
i hate you!
Now , i miss you!
Bogoshipdahhh!
Cannot believe Ivan knew my name,..
GUAI GUAI want..
And Earnest always called my name..
Heehehhhe... LOL.
But arent tunsri boy?
why he like pink??
Funny...
Earnest is so funny in class..
I can laughhh till mouth painnn.. Because of his jokes.
but today Candy's jokes made my stomachache!
SHE IS SOOO FUNNY!!!
Acting leg pain as she wanted to seat the lift!!
FUNNNNNNNYYY!
hhhhheeeeeheeeeee
And i found out she love praises , but who dont love praises?
even i also like :D
Hope i can really get a GOOD results!!!!
Hwaiting , SANDY LIM!!

Hush.. Hush..
Really cant wait going to HongKong with Candy.
Now need to plan... Muahahaha.
It is going to be damn fun. I lovin it!
Smile XD
Haixxx.
Why arent you talking to me?
Why are always giving me hopes then dash my hopes?
Why?
You dont talk to me. And talk to me.
When you talk to me , it is only about school.
Why can you talk personal stuff to her and not me?
My hopes always been dashed all because of you!
Can you at least dont give any hopes by talking to me in the first place?
They say when a person is shy to you , it means that person like you.
You dont talk to me in the start, causing me to think that you like me.
Then now you always talk to me !
I am confused.
You always talk to her , go out with her.
Making me to feel that i am not good for you.
Causing me to feel so negatively.
Can you please talk to me next time so i wont think that you are
shy to me? Making me to be so stupid.
Whenever i see you , i feel that i am not good for you!
Maybe she is better.
But i really want to get a hold of you..
Hiassss..x...x..x..
C'mon Sanndy! You are not for him..
I am so sad.
So what if i am the doing all the talking, when you dont even respond.
I know i am abit rude to you.
When you ask me questions , i am only replying yes or no.
But thats not under my control, i cant help it.
i cannot control my feelings.
I cant ask them to stop liking you when you are talking to me.
And liking you when you dont talk to me.
I cant. I am a human being. I am not a robot that can control my feelings.
I saw how you care for the children , it make me to more like you!
STOP, sandy , you should know that he wont like you!
Even if he likes WeeHiang , he also cant possible to like you!
Sandy , wake up!! All is dreams , being together with him.
He wants to be an accountant.
I wanted to be a detective or interior designer.
There is no way i am going to be an accountant.
His results are way better than mine.
I am so stupid.
He is good in anything while i am not.
I am just trying to make him jealous by saying ftisland in front of him.
I am not like that when i am in Sec 1 , 2 ,3
But i am like that now.
Sandy , what happen to you??
Did anyone spell a cast on you?
I really wanted to do well this time round and for n level.
so i can go anywhere i want!
Sandy , hwaiting.
You have been so good now! Improve more.
Sandy , you have to love study now!
Love study , not cm!
STUDY SANDY!

Today is 22July2011.
Many things happened today!
Hehe.
Shit , i anyhow do my chinese mock exam.
Die liao lor.
Oral , lose to weehiang.
Listening compre , lose to weehiang.
Writing , lose to weehiang.
Now paper2 , also lose to her.
English , lose to weehiang.
Chinese , lose to weehiang.
Languages skill , wee hiang is better.
Maths , lose to weehiang.
POA, lose to weehiang.
Emaths , i forget how to do le.
POA, i never win her before.
Chem , lose to weehiang.
Physics, lose to weehiang.
My science became lousy already.
SS , lose to weehiang.
Geo , lose to weehiang.
My memorisation is lousy.
Amaths , can win her .
Cause she didnt even take amaths.
Aish , i cant even win her.
How am i being able to get at least 3 A1s?
Why am i so lazy and stupid?
Okay , need to plan.
I have 7 subjects now.
Emaths , Chinese and POA/Humanities.
Have to see my luck now.
Cause all my luck at weehiang there.
N level , Sandy ! HWAITING! jiayou!
This time , you not study for yourself.
But for Candy and Jiejie!
Hwaiting.. >.<
CM talk to me?
in person?
and we stand so close?
closer than couple?
but lucky i move.
ahahaha
Aiya , just ask me you have chinese tys.
4 words only.
today at kindergarden.
Elissa , mama , WH , me and CM in the same grp.
arrrhhh.
me , wh and cm is the safety.
I hate children.
He look so cute taking care of children.
AIshhhh.
He look at children so cute.
For a few moment, he look like ah yuan.
But lucky he is cm , my cm!
He is always damn cute no matter what.
Just cant believe we stood so close together today.
Why ar?
When i like him , we so fate.
When i dont like him , we not fate?
hate him ar!
but he treat children so good.
Forgive him.
just like husband and wife together take care children.
Aish , shameless sia me!
Want look after children also me and hongki.
hehe...
Always bluff myself.
Living in a virtual world.
Hiaxx.
Hope next week mr ho wont embarrassed me in front of the class.
my face going to be thrown.
oh , is already been thrown.
but i always got a feeling cm wanted to get close me.
Or i am dreaming?
Should be lar, i am dreaming , havent wake up.
i am so sleepy once the clock turn to 11pm.
hardworking sandy will never come out.
but determined sandy is coming out.
Hwaiting...
>>,<<
Okay , Ftisland , goodnight.
CM , wish you a good night.
Maybe you are thinking of th now.
but i still wish you goodnight.
I don't mind you don't like me.
But please let my heart stop fluttering.
i cannot stand le.
i wanted to get close to you.
i cant resist anymore.
I dont have resistor in my body..
GOOD NIGHT , PEOPLE!

Hehhss.
Actually i am damn lazy to update my blog,
but today is an exception.
Maybe i had a big blow yesterday.
How can she say i am petty?
when she herself is more petty than me?
Haix, er ren xian gao zhuan.
Eh, Monday i just accompany Candy,
then you like dont want to talk to me.
or when i ignore your question and didnt answer you,
you give me what face?
And somemore , sec 1 and 2 ,
when i win just abit , damn abit.
You ? Ignore me the whole day.
I am asking you now.
Is you petty or me?
So i say , please take a look of yourself in the mirror first,
before saying others.
Then when you win me,
i had to act like i dun care , or else will be said by you that i am petty.
Eh , i trying very hard to let you.
Please dun push over my limit.
Be careful we even friends also cannot be.
Say others, say yourself lar.
Then when teacher mark mine , dun mark yours.
You say the teacher bias , or like me.
Then when the teacher gave you higher marks,
when we having the same answer.
What i do ?
Keeping quiet.
Can your be bigger abit , at least?
Cannot stand others being ugly?
I think you more ugly.
I mean your heart.
When others did something irritates you.
it is not my fault leh,
why are you venting your anger on me?
Do i look like sandbag or what?
Let you say , scold. ...
Still say i control you.
I noever control you before.
I am only telling you what is right and what i wrong.
Amaths ?
I did use gun point at your head to stay back with me.
Is you volunteer yourself.
Why your english became so good?
Is because you write a lot of books during amaths.
I did not harm you , instead i am helping you.
Yet, you say i am like you mother.
And when you leave , i did not give you face.
I am just being emotionless.
You also go what, complain what?
Si complain queen. When your heart will be bigger???
Cant stand xiao xin yan de people!
I think janet , elissa , zonia and candy is far way better than you!
Everyone already dote on you.
They ignore me ,
they are bias.
but i dont mind , i have my husbands.
My mother and my sister.
Somemore , real sister , cousins.
Having them is more than enough!!!
Especially candy!
I love her TTM!
How i wish i can go china with her!
Hehe , i should buck up!
And study till i get at least 2 As!
So i can go oversea..
Waaaah, really wish i can have good results!
But i doubt so.
As my results nowadays is worse off.
I dunno what can i do to get a better results.
My science? Hiax , CMI.
My maths and amaths? Forget everything already!
My humanitites? Forget it , can even memorise.
My english and chinese? I screw it already! CMI.
My POA? haha , that one never pass before!
Why dun they create a language call Singlish.
A subject call kpop.
Like this , A1 very easy to get.
Hiax... Studies is a no no thing for me!!
I really wanna go Candy's country!
But my results.
Nevermind, sandy , you can do it!
Have to do it!!
Sandy , hwaiting!!

I am already missing the times we had with Fionna!
It already been 4years.
Remember the time we first met each other?
We were all not putting sjab at the first choice.
But since it is fate,
we met each other through SJAB.
Many hard times we went through together during sjab.
When we sec1 , we were like babies.
Don't know anything.
And always been scolded by the seniors.
Under the hot sun, trainings were tough.
But we went through it, it is over. Finally over.
Many times i wanted to quit sjab cause of the tough trainings.
We were always trying to skip trainings.
But in the end, we were all there during all trainings.
Sec2 , thats when eric first came in.
Who knows him?
Haha, time brought us together.
We were more co-operative than real siblings.
It is the 7 of us, just the 7 of us.
We helped each other , huh?
When i am down , you asked me to stand up.
When you are down , i asked you to stand up.
You helped me , and i helped you.
Haha, SNCO and JNCO, even though not all of us were there.
But we were already close.
There are many activites in sjab.
We were always together , standing strong.
We wanted others to feel that MPSS is not a lousy school.
Haha. SEC3 when we had to take over SJAB.
many look down on us, saying us will never make it.
Then, we show them lar.
Not that perfect, at least we make through.
Many things were changed , so we don't know how to do.
We didnt even know we had to discuss for every department.
How silly were us.
What is over is over , we will never make an unturn for it.
So let it be.
Maybe not all good times fall on us.
but it is great memories though.
We spent more time in SJAB than with our friends.
Indeed, i dun dare to show my funny side to my friend.
But in sjab, i am a totally different person.
In fact , i dont dare to speak up in the past.
Now , i dare.
Being friend with you guys were good and bad!
We were so close.
Hhahahahhaa...
Anyways, if the God really wanted us to be together,
we will always be together no matter how far are we.
Even from mars or jupita, we will still be together.
We had people from thai, philipineS and Indonesia.
This is already a fate for being together.
We were all from different countries.
Yet we are able to meet each other in SJAB.In MPSS. InSingapore.
See ya next time if we had the chance. Anyong!
Hwaiting for your 'O' levels & 'N' levels.

Waah...
I had a feeling that cm don't like me.
Aiya, he already from starting don't like me.
What can i expect huh?
I think i should not act in front of him anymore.
I should be more of myself.
I need to be myself.
Hehehes.
He was sick yesterday.
His eyes swollen.
See his eyes today, i very sad.
Wah, why cant i take care of him?
And his mum, he eyes swollen already,
still let him go school?
Haven fully recover, you also let him go school?
Yesterday was his first time didn't go to school.
After Tuesday remedial and sitting beside him for two time,
i think he still like TzeHsien, or WeeHiang.
I am the confirm not want.
It is okay, i have my laogong!
But there are too many times i am bluffing myself.
Too many times.
Today, WeeHiang force me to sit beside him again.
I wanna change sit want. But I cannot.
Most embarrassing thing is his pen drop.
WeeHiang say something drop so i went to pick up,
I didnt know it was his!
Arrr, Why i always throw my face in front of him?
Hiaxxx.
And today we have to put our books in the cupboard.
Again and again.
Why so suay?
Always with him?
Walau. I dont like being so close with him.
Being close with him, all my embarrassement movement will be shown
as nervousness force to do things i resist.
Aggghhh, but lucky he is not concern about me.
Cause i am nothing in his eyes.
Luckkky. 'hoo~!' wiping off sweat.
Next time, i hope i wont throw my face anymore..
I should watch my behaviour.
And i hope people around me will help me.
Really, over the past two weeks ,
cm and i damn got fate! Always meet each other.
I don't wish to remember paiseh thing.
Okay , i am sleepy now.
Anything, i will continue.
Ftisland Laogong, goodnight.
Cm, goodnight!

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Waahh , Cm and I today 很有缘!
네가보고 싶을 !!
Today morning , i wondering why cm brought his bag down
when he already reached the classroom.
Ohh , then i remember first period is CHEM/BIO.
But he still went back to class.
What is the most embarrassing thing is
Candy and i trying the hand gestures
hongki use for hellohello,
then he suddenly walked past me..
Urghh,很尴尬!
Whhhaaatttt T.T!!!
Recess , he stayed in the classroom.
Candy and i playing her iphone4 ,
then he asked Candy for her chinese TYS..
Waah , second time !!!
Mothertongue after recess.
He sat at our seat.
We are supposed to sit with Joey & Huiting ,
but he sat there so we had to sit another table.
We : Candy , Elissa , Me and WeeHiang.
When we are supposed to go to the hall for V.E after POA,
he accidentally hit me and said sorry.
I wondering why he had to stand there.
During V.E , i thought he sat at the second row,
then i turned my head and i saw him.
Just below me...diaooo!
Chinese remedial, He and i went up at the same time.
I didnt know he finished until when i started walking.
When the chinese teacher asked who is our teacher,
i wondering what is our teacher surname and waiting for him to answer.
He didnt !!!
WTF!!!
Lucky WeeHiang came up , or else only one word to describe the scene
: AWKWARD!!
So fate.
But when there is Candy , i am sure throw my face...
Heheehehehe...
These days , he started to talk to me.
But the words he talked to me and others still different.
Mine is so little.
He always borrowed things from me in the start of the year.
Now is WeeHiang.
To be truth , i think he liked WeeHiang.
I wont be angry if this is the truth.
Feelings cannot be controlled,
i cannot stopped him.
Loving someone is to wish that person to be happy.
Hehs, after 16years in the world.
I finally grown up!
LOL, lammmmeee.
I wont be angry as i still have my virtual husbands...
Hehehehehe :D

Arrrr... Hahahahahaha!!
Woahhh!
Today is my birthday..
Almost everyone i knew wishes me already.
Except for him.
I hope he know.
But i think he dunno.
Aish, hope he say happy birthday to me too!
Woaaah, like husband saying i love you to his wife.
EEEW, mushy sia.
Woaaa.
hhehehehe.
Hongki love children,
if marry him.
maybe we can play with children.
Jonghun love romantic,
marry him,
everyday have goosebump.
Jaejin so naggyy,
marry him,
one day sure leave the house.
Seunghyun love his brother and so funny,
marry him,
one day no energy to laugh.
Minhwan so caring,
marry him,
happy forever.
Wonbin so petty,
marry him,
one sure cant stand him.
Sehyun so cute,
marry him,
one day sure die from his matureness.
Heehee.
I love Hongki.
The way he love the children.
But i more hope he will wish me happy birthday.
These days, i been thinking of him.
Holding hand, going out.
Everything together.
Aiya , all dreamsss.
Tmr going vivo with yaya,
hope got fti concert dvds.
Especially beautiful journey and Zepp tour.
I AM OFFICIALLY MRS FTISLAND. :D

I thought i already forgotten him after a month of holiday.
But actually , i could not.
Monday and Tuesday , i really not into him.
As i havent gotten off my craziness of ftisland,
so i couldnt focus on him.
But after Geography rememdial,
i realised i am still liking him.
Haix, i am unsure of my feelings.
^&^ ..
He always made me like him,
when i am actually stop liking him.
Then made me jealous when i like him.
This is what i think.
I am actually looking at him ,
during all my english periods.
Really have that urge to go in front him ,
and ask the truth with a straight forward manner.
I am already confusing enough from my studies and CCA already.
Stop adding more worries to me.
ARRRRR.
Why is my life so difficult????
WHY ??
I am so faithful to someone i love.
FTisland and HIM.
I been having eyes contact with him these days.
But it means nothing. Totally nothing.
Ytd, as it was raining.
So weehiang came late.
Then he asked me whether weehiang got come to school.
I snugde my shoulder giving a meaning i dunno.
that is all thanks to WH, he talked to me!
Arrr, so happy.
And he called my name.
Usually , he dun called.
Haixxx.
Miss the days in SEC 1 AND 2!
Wow...
Hohoho. My sixth sense told me that he wont like me.
Aiya , please stop having false hope lehh.
The more you hope, the greater disappointed you will have.
Nvm, if he dont like me.
I still had a long way to go.
But i really cant stand the days having do things i do not want to do.
Hiax,... No choice, had to acknowledge this life larrr.
No matter what, i still have to do.
Siannnnzzz totally.
Ar , i am so close to him these days.
Wondering is he wanted to go close WH , or what.
Aish , jingjiatt.

*Sign...
Why am i always being a dog ?
Being asked to do this and that.
Go for this and that.
If I don't go or do this or that, i will be punished
or scolded...
Am i a dog that have to obey others at all times?
Do i have to?
I have my personal rights. Am i right?
I didnt choose to go for sjab as my cca.
I cant change my cca, and i felt lost at that time.
I had no choice and had to go for everything they asked.
I already went for 90% of activites they made,
but what i get in the end?
Scolding, Embarrassed.
I already did everything to the best of my limit.
I do not like that cca,
but i gave all my best to do it.
And yet, they still scold me.
Who the hell they think they are?
SJAB should not exist in this world at all.
I agree with my father.
Eh, sjab are to save people right?
Why do we need to dress so properly,
polish the boots so shiny,
are we going for fashion show?
Are we models?
Are we models that had to go for catwalk?
Eh, other CCA already step down lehh.
We lehh? Work like dog, yet still kena punishment.
Didnt we gave our best.
Eh, our batch do not have one that choose SJAB for our CCA.
We are kena force to go in.
You cant expect much from us.
And since we don't like,
we won't do our best.
If you do not like a certain thing,
would you ever force yourself to do it even no one ask?
I doubt you will.
We are just doing everything you asked just for the sake for
not getting scolding , do you know?
This 2011, we don't improve just because of your scoldings.
C'mon man, can you just wake up?
STOP DREAMINING.
what we need is motivation and someone we respect on.
Not scoldings.
Eh, we are old enough to think what we need.
I really regretted on not insisting qutiting during sec1 and 2.
Sorry, i just cant asked myself to work like a dog
for something i don't like.
What i like is something that is peaceful ,
and do not need tough trainings and fast thinking mind.
I am just speaking the truth,
i really felt CCA is no use.
It doesnt help our studies in any way.
And it doesnt help us in any way
for getting to the real life.
I am just to angry for working like dog for 3 years plus for sjab.
Wasting my time in all ways.
Hiaiiaiaiaiaxxxxx!

OWNED BY: Sandy Lim
STONE CRACKED: 4 July '95
SCHOOL(s): KHS'02-07 / MPSS'08-'12 / TP'13-'16
COLOUR OF MY LIFE: White and Black.

Sandy is MY name :D !
I am just ranting all my unhappiness and frustration about my life.
Of course it will not only be negative sides.
Life is full of challenges.
TAKE IT, LEARN IT and REMEMBER IT.
Enjoy if you like it or LEAVE if you hate it.
Simplicity is the only rule in my game.
It's all my personal feelings and I am not pin-pointing anyone.
SO DON'T FEEL OFFENDED.
This is all about it.
Admires, Loves, Hatred, Jealous, Dislikes!
Saranghaeyo, Sukidayo, Wo Ai NI, I love you.
Komowo, Arigato, Xie Xie,Thank you.

I ♡ Ft island & ARASHI & KinKi Kids & Yabu Kota!

WHAT KEEPS MY LIFE GOING: FOODS. DRAMAS. SLEEP. FRIENDS.
WHO MOTIVATES ME: FT ISLAND & ARASHI & KINKI KIDS & YABU KOTA.
HOW I SURVIVE: CHIONG DRAMAS OVERNIGHT. BAD-MOUTHING PPL I HATE WITH MY BESITES. TALK ABOUT LIFE RANDOMLY.



SU-KA:
♥ ARASHI
♥ FT Island & WON BIN
♥ KINKI KIDS
♥ YABU KOTA
♥ HCM, MY CRUSH
♥ Good things to happen
♥ Spending quality time with my HAO PENG YOU
♥ Doing what I like & having time for myself


BUAY SONG:
X When idiots talk bad about my idols
X When things do not happen as I wish
X People who literally ignored me
X Taking in all those shitty things by myself
X Double face BASTARD. Bootlickers. FAKERS.
X Separations

These are my LIKES and DISLIKES :D


This world is so amazing!
BUT, virtual world seems to be more REAL than real world.
Everyone is putting a mask over their face to fit in this society.
No one is ever going to show you their real side anymore.
Be strong.
That's the only way to survive in this ruined world.