Thursday, June 23, 2011 @ 10:11 AM | 0 notes
My feeling always up and down.
Angry, sad, happy!
Sometimes, maybe only sometimes,
i dun want my father to come back.
Once he reach home,
he will start scolding,
and maybe show some anger from his work on us.
I hate that point.
But sometimes, i hope my father always at home with me.
Anyways, i love my family even though i hate them some times!
I also love ftisland , from their bondness.
They always support each other,
when one member were to do dramas,
they will always texting supporting words to each other.
Maybe FTisland don't show their love openly,
but they always loved each other from their heart.
I can see that Hongki dote Minhwan alot.
And i also can see the Hyungs love their Dongsaeng alot.
Hongki always react at Minhwan's aegyo.
Not the way what Jonghun, Wonbin and Jaejin doing,
they beat Minhwan when minhwan is doing an aegyo.
Hongki will pinch Minhwan , kiss Minhwan or do some action
to show that he really love Minhwan.
Thats a brother should do.
Not always telling you to do this and that,
and not telling you why you have to do that.
He thinks that he is doing the right job of being a brother.
But thats not what a sister wants.
They needed is your care.
Like what WeeHiang's brother is doing.
I admit, my brother is much more better being
a brother than weehiang brother.
My brother tries to be a role model in front of me and my sis.
He always done the right thing,
sometimes he just scolded us.
Maybe he needs a brother to play with him.
But sometimes i really cant stand ,
his way of asking others to do things.
He can do it himself instead of telling me to this and that,
and when i didnt do, he reprimanded me.
I have a hot temper, so i lose my temper easily.
People cannot provoke me , or i will go crazy!
Now i am older, i can control my temper.
So please dont do anything that make me angry,
or else i have to remember you for life.
I really into FTISLAND again.
Even though i told myself not to,
but i am mad over FTISLAND again.
I said i want to do homework today ,
but i kept telling myself tommorrow then do.
Always tomorrow, until school reopen ,
i also havent finished my homework.
Arghhhh, what happen to me?
Sandy , please wake up!
Since FTisland already went back to Japan already,
now it is time to study.
C'mon man, i have a mission to accomplished.
It is to win WeeHiang and CheeMing.
This time is amaths who cause my marks to go lower.
Next time i have to use amaths to pull up my marks.
Sandy, you are a determined and competitive girl.
And you will give in your best to this. Am i right?
SO , hwaiting! Sandy, you can do it! Maybe even better!
I wont dwell on this too much , as i had to focus on my studies.
I had to listen teachers' teaching!
Hwaiting, sandylimshuying !
Hehes,
is it a habit to be thinking of cm?
Or i really like him?
I dun even dare to see his pictures on FB.
When i saw him talking to other girls,
i am jealous. But now, i am not so.
Cause what he told about is all bout schoolworks.
And i cant miss him during holidays,
because all my holidays,
i spent my time on crazy over Ftisland.
He meant nothing to me when there is Ftisland.
But i got worried when these days he is not tweeting,
till today, he started tweeting again!
Hahas.
He is smaller tthan me.
Should i give up?
Since i promised myself not to play Jie-Di lian?
I also dunno why i like him.
There is so many times, i really wanted to be with him.
And staying under the same roof,
but when it comes to reality,
we wont even talked to each other,
how to become together?
The only thing we talked about is,
' Can lend me your _____ '
Thats all.
Hiax, people like me wont be able to get any bf soon.
Even my father also said i dun like pretty.
My brother said i like a tomboy.
Why dun i be a boy ? thats much better, i wont think of CM anymore.
I wont dream being together with him anymore.
But i really miss him.
I wanted to confess, but i cant in this condition.
Not clever, pretty condition.
I wonder how others talk to him like talking to a friend.
Molla, Na jingjiat molla!
I only believe i need someone to love me from who i am ,
not love me who i am not!
I am hinting you all the times,
yet you dunno.
Are you a dumb? Sorry to said that.
Or maybe you really dun like me,
so you avoid me?
I am sorry then. To like you.
I should not like you in the first place.
I should not.
But i cant control, what am i suppose to do now?
Okay, i should focus on doing my homework ,
and focus on studies now.
LOVE this thing i will talk about next time.
As i dun like mushy things,
so i wont be able being a good gf anyways.
So , lets nature takes it course.
Now , i should do what i suppose to do!
FTW!
Saturday, June 18, 2011 @ 10:39 AM | 0 notes
Hello Hello:D
These days, i dunno what have gotten into
weehiang, she seems not happy to go with me.
Today CPR, her face always turn to Asyikin.
Then when i talk to her , she like dun want reply.
Only laughs at Asyikin words.
Sianzz. She everytime also like that.
Just because we are in different groups.
She totally ignored me.
Always like that. I just cant stand her ways of doing things.
I also cant stand the character she is having.
But she is my friend.
Haha:D , people always asked us to turn to the
positive sides, so i have to.
In order to live a better life.
Since this is her character , i had no choice.
But to react whatever reaction she gave.
Haix, wonder this kind of relationship will last how long?
And that cm, i wonder if he is out of town?
SO long time also never tweet.
Cant even know what he is doing.
Why do he follow me in the first place,
when he dont tweet so much after that?
Before he follow me , he can tweet more than 3 tweets a day.
Now , one also dun have.
Should i unfollow him?? Hehe , wondering !!
Maybe i should. so he can tweet more :D
Hehehehe :D
I miss the days we had in china with him.
Wondering if he could really be my bf.
Haha, going on a trip together :P
Nice feelings.
I just remembered that time he slept till like a pig.
Cant hear people knocking the door.
Hahaa.
Another one is he walk looking on the floor.
Without realization, he went into girls toilet.
Hahaha, and the only people who saw is me ,
weehiang and jundong. Wonder what he felt.
Should be damn shy ba.
Dun worry , real life laogong.
We wont say anything.
Hehehe.
And i remembered asking him for a bottle of water
during the parent meeting session.
Hahaha... Eye contact for such a long time.
I just asked him for a bottle of water,
but he looked at me for so long.
Dunno look for what.
I know i am pretty, also dun need look so long.
Shameless me . Lol
I just realise i wasted so much time.
Early know dun so crazy bout FTisland.
Their RETURN album is not that best.
I just sad for them.
But when i knew they are so famous overseas,
i am happy for them.
Brazil is inviting them over for a concert :D
Cheer Up, imaginary laogong!
Romanian, European, Mexico, America!!!
I cant remember the rest.
But they are so FAMOUS!!
Hehee. Since they're doing so great,
it is time for me to focus on studies.
Monday : English and Maths
Tuesday : SS and Geo
Wednesday : Chinese and Chem
Thursday : Physics and Amaths
Friday : POA
Saturday : Clear up everything i have not done,
packed so bag!
Sunday : Prepare for school
Monday : Go school .
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Sunday : Yaya's comeback :DDDDD I am so happy !!!
Happy till i dunno what to say :DEEE
>3<
Hahahahaahahaha!!!!
So hwaiting, sandy lim!
Lets clear up all homeworks within a week.
Sandy , you can do it.
Even is anyhow do, but it is at least better than never do.
Jiayous, kampatei !!! Hwaiting !!!
Fighting :DDDD
Thursday, June 9, 2011 @ 11:53 AM | 0 notes
I wanna say 'i like you' to him.
But i cannot.
I have no courage at all.
I like him, but he dunno.
I can only look him at a distance.
I try hard to get near him, but i cant.
I wanted to confess to him, i dun dare.
I wanted him to notice, but he dun.
Does he like me?? I have this thinking in mmy mind.
Does he jealous because of me?
Does he care for me?
Many times, i am thinking of hugging him.
But i really dun dare.
I dun dare talk to him.
He is shy, i am shy too.
He dun talk to me , i wont talk to him.
I dun talk to him, he wont talk to me.
I think we are waiting for either one of us to start the conversation.
we dun have a same topic we both can talk on.
I saw him with her,
my heart broke.
I saw him talking to her,
i cant stop being jealous.
I saw him liking her,
i cant do anything.
My love, worthless love.
Many times, i felt damn useless.
I only can think and dream of you.
But nothing in reality, we are together.
I hope you have the same feeling as me.
But i think you dun.
I dunno how to ask you whether you like me.
I wanted to know, dying to know.
I like a idiot.
Chances come to me, i dun cherish it.
Whenever you tries to talk to me,
i dun reply.
Everytime you ask me something,
i push you to other people.
Many times you wanted to help me,
but i want it.
I am really a stupid person that dunno how use the right time.
But i cant be myself with the presence of you.
I am always another person when you are around.
I really cant show you my trueself.
Why cant i like other people?
So i can talk to you comfortably and i
can be your close friend.
That is enough by being your close friend.
Now, you and i only classmates.
wishing that i have the thick skin to ask
whether you like me.
wishing that i have the courage to tell
you i like you.
wishing that i have the luck so that,
you like me too.
I never like anyone else in real life,
like as much as i like you.
thinking of you the whole day,
but you say you prefer being alone.
Do you know, i am totally sad seeing that sentences.
I wonder why you wrote that.
Is it because someone you like dun like you?
And that person like kpop?
Is it dawn?, kat?, WeeHiang?.
Can you please tell me who you like?
i am dying to know.
If i dunno, i will have lots of thoughts that you like me.
Please stop my thoughts by giving me an answer.
I wanted to know.
You hate kpops, because i like?
You like being alone, because i kept mentioning kpop?
I remembered you once told us that you like snsd.
But now you asked why girls are so crazy about kpops.
No love? why no love?
dun you like someone? a pretty girl maybe?
I wanted to sit Elissa car, you wanted to?
Helping us to take report book?
I beg you, cm, please dun do anything that gave me that thoughts.
I am afraid i will like very much,
in the end, you dun like me.
Please , i know it is only my thinking.
But it really affect me alot.
I know you have your freedom of doing things.
But i hope you dun anymore things to give that kind of thoughts.
I trying very hard to forget that i like you.
and i am trying very hard to love ftisland more than you.
But no matter what, you always what i am thinking.
For 4 years, i always like you.
Refrain myself from getting to near you.
Many things i tried to avoid you, but i cannot.
You always what i am thinking of.
In my dreams, in my mind.
CM, i know you wont like me.
I am also trying not to like you.
Once i am success not liking you.
I will talk to you.
Wait for me. A while more.
I can make that happen.
So wait for me.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011 @ 10:30 AM | 0 notes
Prefer being alone?
Fine, then go all the way alone!!!
I have my so called laogongs can already.
I dun need you this kind of guy.
Only know how to act emo.
Act cool, act guai.
Go away lar. Early know,
i should not know you in the first place
Like that, i wouldnt like you.
Why i know you.
This is not my life.
You should not appeared in my life.
Please go away.
Wonder why should i know you.
Make me thinking of you during study time.
See you when teacher is talking.
Dream of you when i am sleeping.
Jealous when i saw you with other girls.
Why am i being like that?
I hint to you so many times i like you.
I always praise FTISLAND in front of you ,
to make you jealous, but you are not.
Please let me give up.
I know you wont like me, but i dunno why
i cant put down this feeling.
I dunno....
I love you this three words is not meant for say ,
but meant to be done.
i wanted you to be jealous when i praise other guys,
i wanted you to care for me when i am feeling down ,
but theres nothing you did for me.
Except for helping me to take my report book.
there is no other thing.
i wonder why i like you for.
say handsome, u not that handsome.
say clever, u not that clever.
say funny, u not really funny.
say cute, u also not cute.
say caring, u not that caring.
say good, u not that good.
i also dunno why i can like you for 4years,
i am totally MAD!!!
Siao , already D:
I really dunno.
Why i so like you, and you dunno ???
Indeed, this world is kidding people.
Making us do things and like things,
we knew we cant have it.
Wishing for a good grades, at last get back a good grades.
Like someone, hoping that person to like me too,
but that person dun even care my presence.
Funny, i cant possibly ask him to like me back,
am i right.
Fine, i give up !!!
Okay??
Monday, June 6, 2011 @ 9:03 AM | 0 notes
One week over..
I had spent one week of my holiday
playing the netbook all day long!
Cause of the presence of FTI comeback,
i have not think of cm that much as the past.
Ftisland had not taken the first place.
I am sad!
And i had been online for FB and twitter everyday!
Everytime i wished to go school is
to see cm, but when i reached school,
i dun dare to see him.
What's wrong with me?
He seems to hate kpop again.
I thought he like SNSD, suddenly say,
'why all girls are so crazy over korean stars'
is he jealous because of me,
my first thought.
But i think again,
he wont because of me said that,
so think he is saying other girls , my second thought!
He always made me think that he like me
then later made me think that i am ugly.
He always gave me the wrong thinking.
or maybe is i think too much.
He seems to love his games and books,
i dun think he like girls.
Even he like, he also wont like me.
Everyday daydreaming, nightdreaming that he will like me.
All rubbish, dreams wont come true anyway.
Now , i should play enough then continue study.
Think of cm, must well think of FTI.
At least they wont made me sad,
like what cm always do!
giving me the wrong thinking.
Then made me feel happy then damn sad.
I really dunno what he felt.
If can, i can google and asked whether he liked me?
This will made my life much easier and better.
Not thinking the useless thing everydday!
WHETHER HE LIKES ME OR NOT???
I wish i can asked through google,
and no one will know that i like him.
CM,FTISLAND,OWB !!! I like you!!!
My love ranking :
1st > Family
2nd > CloseFriends & CloseCousins
(Candy, WeeHiang, Elissa, Fionna)&(Zonia, Janet, Kezia, Joanna, Diana)
3rd > FTISLANDboys & OhWonBin
4th > HCM , my admire for 4years!!!
BUT HE DUNNNO T.T!!
I hope one day, he will tell me this,
'i also like you for 4years'
Waaaaahhh!!!
Imaginations only, not real T.T
Oh, today is ftisland 4th Anniversary :D
Chukahamnidah <3
I love them for 2years plus...
CM, I HOPE YOU LIKE ME TOO!!!
