Thursday, June 23, 2011 @ 10:11 AM | 0 notes
My feeling always up and down.
Angry, sad, happy!
Sometimes, maybe only sometimes,
i dun want my father to come back.
Once he reach home,
he will start scolding,
and maybe show some anger from his work on us.
I hate that point.
But sometimes, i hope my father always at home with me.
Anyways, i love my family even though i hate them some times!
I also love ftisland , from their bondness.
They always support each other,
when one member were to do dramas,
they will always texting supporting words to each other.
Maybe FTisland don't show their love openly,
but they always loved each other from their heart.
I can see that Hongki dote Minhwan alot.
And i also can see the Hyungs love their Dongsaeng alot.
Hongki always react at Minhwan's aegyo.
Not the way what Jonghun, Wonbin and Jaejin doing,
they beat Minhwan when minhwan is doing an aegyo.
Hongki will pinch Minhwan , kiss Minhwan or do some action
to show that he really love Minhwan.
Thats a brother should do.
Not always telling you to do this and that,
and not telling you why you have to do that.
He thinks that he is doing the right job of being a brother.
But thats not what a sister wants.
They needed is your care.
Like what WeeHiang's brother is doing.
I admit, my brother is much more better being
a brother than weehiang brother.
My brother tries to be a role model in front of me and my sis.
He always done the right thing,
sometimes he just scolded us.
Maybe he needs a brother to play with him.
But sometimes i really cant stand ,
his way of asking others to do things.
He can do it himself instead of telling me to this and that,
and when i didnt do, he reprimanded me.
I have a hot temper, so i lose my temper easily.
People cannot provoke me , or i will go crazy!
Now i am older, i can control my temper.
So please dont do anything that make me angry,
or else i have to remember you for life.
I really into FTISLAND again.
Even though i told myself not to,
but i am mad over FTISLAND again.
I said i want to do homework today ,
but i kept telling myself tommorrow then do.
Always tomorrow, until school reopen ,
i also havent finished my homework.
Arghhhh, what happen to me?
Sandy , please wake up!
Since FTisland already went back to Japan already,
now it is time to study.
C'mon man, i have a mission to accomplished.
It is to win WeeHiang and CheeMing.
This time is amaths who cause my marks to go lower.
Next time i have to use amaths to pull up my marks.
Sandy, you are a determined and competitive girl.
And you will give in your best to this. Am i right?
SO , hwaiting! Sandy, you can do it! Maybe even better!
I wont dwell on this too much , as i had to focus on my studies.
I had to listen teachers' teaching!
Hwaiting, sandylimshuying !
Hehes,
is it a habit to be thinking of cm?
Or i really like him?
I dun even dare to see his pictures on FB.
When i saw him talking to other girls,
i am jealous. But now, i am not so.
Cause what he told about is all bout schoolworks.
And i cant miss him during holidays,
because all my holidays,
i spent my time on crazy over Ftisland.
He meant nothing to me when there is Ftisland.
But i got worried when these days he is not tweeting,
till today, he started tweeting again!
Hahas.
He is smaller tthan me.
Should i give up?
Since i promised myself not to play Jie-Di lian?
I also dunno why i like him.
There is so many times, i really wanted to be with him.
And staying under the same roof,
but when it comes to reality,
we wont even talked to each other,
how to become together?
The only thing we talked about is,
' Can lend me your _____ '
Thats all.
Hiax, people like me wont be able to get any bf soon.
Even my father also said i dun like pretty.
My brother said i like a tomboy.
Why dun i be a boy ? thats much better, i wont think of CM anymore.
I wont dream being together with him anymore.
But i really miss him.
I wanted to confess, but i cant in this condition.
Not clever, pretty condition.
I wonder how others talk to him like talking to a friend.
Molla, Na jingjiat molla!
I only believe i need someone to love me from who i am ,
not love me who i am not!
I am hinting you all the times,
yet you dunno.
Are you a dumb? Sorry to said that.
Or maybe you really dun like me,
so you avoid me?
I am sorry then. To like you.
I should not like you in the first place.
I should not.
But i cant control, what am i suppose to do now?
Okay, i should focus on doing my homework ,
and focus on studies now.
LOVE this thing i will talk about next time.
As i dun like mushy things,
so i wont be able being a good gf anyways.
So , lets nature takes it course.
Now , i should do what i suppose to do!
FTW!
