Thursday, June 9, 2011 @ 11:53 AM | 0 notes
I wanna say 'i like you' to him.
But i cannot.
I have no courage at all.
I like him, but he dunno.
I can only look him at a distance.
I try hard to get near him, but i cant.
I wanted to confess to him, i dun dare.
I wanted him to notice, but he dun.
Does he like me?? I have this thinking in mmy mind.
Does he jealous because of me?
Does he care for me?
Many times, i am thinking of hugging him.
But i really dun dare.
I dun dare talk to him.
He is shy, i am shy too.
He dun talk to me , i wont talk to him.
I dun talk to him, he wont talk to me.
I think we are waiting for either one of us to start the conversation.
we dun have a same topic we both can talk on.
I saw him with her,
my heart broke.
I saw him talking to her,
i cant stop being jealous.
I saw him liking her,
i cant do anything.
My love, worthless love.
Many times, i felt damn useless.
I only can think and dream of you.
But nothing in reality, we are together.
I hope you have the same feeling as me.
But i think you dun.
I dunno how to ask you whether you like me.
I wanted to know, dying to know.
I like a idiot.
Chances come to me, i dun cherish it.
Whenever you tries to talk to me,
i dun reply.
Everytime you ask me something,
i push you to other people.
Many times you wanted to help me,
but i want it.
I am really a stupid person that dunno how use the right time.
But i cant be myself with the presence of you.
I am always another person when you are around.
I really cant show you my trueself.
Why cant i like other people?
So i can talk to you comfortably and i
can be your close friend.
That is enough by being your close friend.
Now, you and i only classmates.
wishing that i have the thick skin to ask
whether you like me.
wishing that i have the courage to tell
you i like you.
wishing that i have the luck so that,
you like me too.
I never like anyone else in real life,
like as much as i like you.
thinking of you the whole day,
but you say you prefer being alone.
Do you know, i am totally sad seeing that sentences.
I wonder why you wrote that.
Is it because someone you like dun like you?
And that person like kpop?
Is it dawn?, kat?, WeeHiang?.
Can you please tell me who you like?
i am dying to know.
If i dunno, i will have lots of thoughts that you like me.
Please stop my thoughts by giving me an answer.
I wanted to know.
You hate kpops, because i like?
You like being alone, because i kept mentioning kpop?
I remembered you once told us that you like snsd.
But now you asked why girls are so crazy about kpops.
No love? why no love?
dun you like someone? a pretty girl maybe?
I wanted to sit Elissa car, you wanted to?
Helping us to take report book?
I beg you, cm, please dun do anything that gave me that thoughts.
I am afraid i will like very much,
in the end, you dun like me.
Please , i know it is only my thinking.
But it really affect me alot.
I know you have your freedom of doing things.
But i hope you dun anymore things to give that kind of thoughts.
I trying very hard to forget that i like you.
and i am trying very hard to love ftisland more than you.
But no matter what, you always what i am thinking.
For 4 years, i always like you.
Refrain myself from getting to near you.
Many things i tried to avoid you, but i cannot.
You always what i am thinking of.
In my dreams, in my mind.
CM, i know you wont like me.
I am also trying not to like you.
Once i am success not liking you.
I will talk to you.
Wait for me. A while more.
I can make that happen.
So wait for me.
