Wednesday, February 20, 2013 @ 10:10 AM | 0 notes
Eeeeeeeeeeeee...... <3 <3!!!
Hello , i am back in just a few weeks.
Good huh ? Am i right?
Hey , lets just get to the point since it is late.
I am talking to myself.
Lol.... getting ready... !
Okay , dont play le!
Today , there were two things that let me think.
Firstly , wh asked me
"Is it really only cm in your heart?" and
"In the four years loving ftisland , you will sure like others."
CM is only one in my heart?
I contain so many people in it.
I thought i forget him le. Is it true?
I don't really know how to answer it.
Havent i put him down already?
We are friends , arent we?
I like him , i really like him.
But i have put it down already...
Or is it only my thoughts.
Maybe not.
I must put it down... EVERYTHING IS OVER.
Even though he talked to me ,
he must treat me as his friend.
Things happened during those five years in MPSS.
We were friends and slowly to stranger and now
, we have to converse in message.
Life is funny , isnt it?
Hahahahaha , dont know when will i be able to meet him
as a friend again? Maybe ten years later.
Yup , i like other artist too during the four years liking FTi.
Those likes died quickly tooo. I am persevere in having fti as my first.
Lols.....
They say one have to be zhuan yi.
I am , okay !
I didnt change my idol so quickly.
It is just that i am not as crazy as in the past.
And also , i also like cm for five years.
So i am a person that dont change heart so easily.
Trust me , i am reliable.
Lets talk more , okay? MY FRIEND.
Anyong , good night ! :D
Friday, February 15, 2013 @ 11:41 AM | 0 notes
It is a few days after CNY !
During that few days , even tough it was boring ,
i felt happy.
This is the first time i didnt stay overnight at janet's house.
Normally i will go over to her house.
But not this time. ahahahhahah :D
On the third day, we went to our third uncle house.
We play small gambling.
Suddenly , i got close with him.
He is two years older than me, my cousin.
I always went to his house every CNY and holidays when
i was young.
I remember when we were young,
we always played soccer.
My bro and his small bro is a team.
Nonetheless , my sis and his sis is a team.
I am so suay being in a team with him.
My soccer skills wasnt bad that time.
Lots of penalty and long shots were scored by me.
Not to haolian but it is true. Lol.
As time goes by , our relationship also became strained.
No reasons. Just like cm. totally the same.
This time being close again made me feel we
have returned to the past.
Cousins forever is cousins , right?
No change. The unity between us also wont change cause
we are cousins forever.
Hahahahahaha.
Two days ago was valentine's day.
I wished him a happy valentine's day.
Didnt expect he would reply me.
haha.
We converse like good friends and joke around like last time.
Lol. So i feel being back to friend state would be much
more better.
If i told him i like him. We would still be in the awkward state.
Not moving anywhere. Putting down my feelings and treat him
like a friend is the most right thing to do.
Now , being comfortable talking to each other.
No more likings only wishing the best for each other.
I know we have no more space to advance our relationship.
So friendship is the furthest we can go.
Then stop there before things turned bad.
I want a happy ending , not a sad one.
So hope you can find a good one in nyp and
me finding a handsome one in tp.
Lol. You of course can.
Me confirm cannot.
So good luck ! I know even you find le also wont announce.
Low profile mah... you said.
it's fine as long as you are happy.
ahhahahahah. GOODLUCK TO BOTH OF US !
Goodnight :D
Friday, February 8, 2013 @ 10:18 AM | 0 notes
Hehs :D ! I am back ....
Quick this time ?
Had been working for hours everyday ... D:!
Tired....
Ever since he automatically message me ,
i had been thinking of him night and morning....
Why am i back to this state?
There is even once i dreamt he said he like me.
Woah , such a bad dream.
That scene had incredibly imprinted on my mind.
I am so afraid that in the real world.
That is all fake.
Why am i wanting to have someone to like me now?
I should not be having this kind of feeling in this timing.
No , i have to control my feelings.
No matter how i like him ,
i have to hide.
Even if i had no more chance to see him ,
i also have to pretend.
Being in the 'friend' state is much more better than
being in the 'stranger' state.
Woah , i am so shock when i open my twitter on that day.
I think he ate wrong medicine ...
hahahaha , whatever it is ?
Put it down , i will not be seeing him anymore.
No more chance in this life.
He is just a FRIEND that message me through twitter....
An online friend?
Haha , maybe not !
It is already a long time since he is on twitter..
I think he went back to Msia.
All is my thinking...... illusion.
He will like me?
Maybe next life bah. CONFIRM NOT THIS LIFE !
He might already had a girlfriend , who knows ?
hahaahahaahhahaahhahaaaa.....
Ending here , so stop thinking so much... it is
NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
Happy Chinese New Year in advance , guys !
