Friday, October 5, 2012 @ 7:05 AM | 0 notes
Today is friday , 5 oct 2012.
The last second week i will spend my time in MPSS.
Next week is the last week i will study with my friends.
To be truth , i am abit sad.
I hate the fact of separation.
Saying goodbye isnt seems as easy as it look.
It takes more courage.
Sadly , i do not have.
Knowing the fact we are going our own ways ,
make me feel like stopping the time at this moment.
Then , we will not drop a tear of sadness.
It is impossible , i know.
No choice by accepting it , and move on.
Good luck then....
Most importantly , you guys are my best friends for life.
Meeting you guys is the best thing in my life.
I always quarrel with you , angry with you ...
but then all these things we experience together
made out friendship even stronger.
Even you dont talk , i know what you are thinking.
Even i dont say , you also know what i want.
Communications between us is just that great.
Sometimes , we even had the same action and speak at the same time.
When we just dont talk with each other for a few hours,
or people dont see us together , they will think that we quarrel.
It is true , friends need their own space.
Let alone best friends.
Being friends for 5 years , i can say nobody had this strong relationship
like us.
Hahaha , maybe it is because we went through alot together.
Like CCA...
Those ups and downs , thanks to you.
I become happier.
Remember when i received my o chinese result ,
i breakdown.
You took a day with me to have a let down moment.
Thanks.
You and i , have secrets...
that nobody knows.
Please remember not to let it out !!
Hahahaha .....
i will remember you guys.... :DDD !!!
Enough of this.
Recalling this week , i realise i had alot of fate with him.
On Monday..... like nothing happen.
Oh , just ss or eng period , we were waiting outside the history room
waiting to go in. His friends and him stood beside my friends and me.
I think he like E as he wants to get close to her.
Tuesday , as english is the first period.
And we have to go the lab on third floor for our lesson.
The five of us went with books in our arms.
When we reach there , mrs lee is standing at the door.
Waiting for our "entry proof" - our homeworks.
I search through my file and found it ,
preparing to let her see.
Then i turn up my head , thinking wh is beside me.
To my horror , he is standing beside me, the place where wh stood.
I almost called him wh.. Luckily , i stopped.
Or else another embarrassing moment will enact soon.
So i took a step back after the surprise he made.
I ran to wh and ask her where did she go...
Haha , i am so serious rummaging through my file.
And did not realise she went to the table.
Then , SS period had changed to eng , so
we have to go the temasek room.
We girls , saw the seats in front are full ,
so we went back.
We took the last second row.
As people are busily choosing seats,
i heard a familiar voice.
He is at the last row , and say let sit at the back.
He is just right behind me.
Luckily , there is a row empty in the front , so we went there.
Saving me from the awkward moments.
On wednesday , nothing special.
On thursday , during PE lessons,
we went to the library for a lesson.
Listening to life meaning.
I am already uncomfortable in my place ,
as it is squeezy...
She afraid i do not have space , so tighthen her legs.
I am doing it to.
Worst come to worst , he sat behind me .
Causing me to be still in my seat.
Not even dare to move an inch.
Fortunately , it ended swiftly.
At the end of the school is maths lesson ,
emaths students had to stay in the library up till 2.30 pm.
Amaths students had to go the microteaching lab.
But we were chased out , so we have to go the yellow room.
then 3pm reached , so we went home.
When we went out of the room ,
there was a familiar bag in front of me ,
and i knew it is him.
He was with his friends at that time.
They were ahead of us.
Due to the traffic light , they stopped.
Same to us.
Waiting for the green light.
I dont know is he cant wait ,
or just dont like the sight of me.
HE and ws jaywalked.
Then J say he jaywalk and ht say lets take picture .
Hahaha , it is funny then.
He always look back when crossing the road.
I know is him , the one who told WS to walk after seeing me.
I think he hate me.
So i have to let go....
I need my pride just like how he needs it tooo.
I just said i want to forget him last him...
And this happened.
Why always like this?
Everytime i want to let go , you just step into my mind.
Conquer it and make me cant forget you.
Then when my mind is full of you ,
you just do something that make me upset.
This had happen so many times.
We are going to say goodbye.
Yet , i am still afraid of confessing my feelings.
I know i am coward , i am afraid.
What should i do ?
You always show me that you HATE me.
All i can do is to avoid you.
I really dont know what to do.
Struggling , drowning....
CX says , first love 100% will fail.
If first love dont fail, then that is not first love.
You is my first, maybe second ?
Is it meant to fail?
I dont know... as i am not a fortune teller , hahaha !
I like you , cm !
I dont know if you know anot.
I can feel you are avoiding me.
Do you hate me?
Or just revenging the way i avoid you in sec 3 ?
In sec3 , you always took the initiative to talk to me.
And i will just always find ways to avoid you.
But do you know ?
Whenever you come close to me and talk to me ,
my heart pump very fast.
All my actions i did just didnt go through my brains.
I dont want to embarrass myself in front of you.
I regret ... for not talking to you.
I am sorry.
But what is done cannot be undone.
I just you to know i didnt mean it to avoid you.
It is because i had feelings for you.
I am afraid when you know it , you will
just flew further from me.
Even worst , you dont even want to see me.
Nowadays , your friends always shouted your name in class.
I dont know who are you attracting ..
All i know is it wont be me.
I feel stupid and sad at the same time.
Why am i still having feelings for someone
who dont even care me?
I am just that stupid.
For loving you.
Even if i know ,
you may like all the girls in this world except me.
i still like you.
This is something i cannot control.
So i am trying hard to forget you.
No matter by what means , i have to forget you.
Fighting , :PP !!
