Missing you , I am missing you.
Thinking of you , wanting to know every bits of you.
Yet you didnt even know.
How come liking someone is so difficult?
Watching dramas , seeing the main characters
being together so easily.
But why it is so difficult to just go a step
closer to you.. WHY ?
I am wondering , imagine
what your heart is thinking.
What will happen if i said ' i like you ' ?
I think and think , it is just thinking.
How would i know if you dont tell me?
How would i know if you dont show me?
There is some lines in Lollipop songs.
Just admit using your eyes,
so i can take a step forward.
But for me , i am staying at where i started.
Phase 1 Phase 2 , impossible.
I hate the feeling of being left alone ,
or you walk away from me.
So i always avoid having relationship with anyone.
Cause i know the ending may not be a happy one.
People always say , you wont know if you dont try it.
I lack of courage , and that dare.
So i am where i first started.
Not moving even if a small steps.
Many times, i am thinking to move the first step.
But with the sight of him , i am freeze.
I dont dare to move. Not even a small movement.
I dont even dare to have a look into his eyes.
Like a stalker , checking his fb and twitter.
What am i supposed to do ?
This , teacher didnt teach in class.
You dont tell me , i wont know.
My mind is full of you , My heart is with you,
But my brain is controlling all this actions.
I think it is because the hurt she left behind.
Making me to think that being toogether
with someone may not bring happiness to anyone forever.
One day , you will separate.
If i dont overcome this thinking , i may be single forever.
What am i thinking?
Am i fated not having someone with me?
Why am i so ugly and stupid?
WHY ?
Why i dont have talent , dont have the beauty,
dont have the brain?
Why am i so useless?
Who will like useless person like me?
I doubt anyone will like.
I lost the competiveness in studies.
I lost the hope on you.
I lose the faith in my friend..
I lost eveything , everything.
Who can help me?
I really need help at this moment.
I cannot tell my parent that i like him .
They will kill me instead.
Mama , please come back and guide your daughter.
Dont leave your daughter settle all these problems on her own.
Please come back!
CM , please dont torture me anymore.
It is difficult to put behind a past,
please dont reminsce it again.
I dont feel myself landing in a lousy family,
i just feel myself ugly and stupid.
I have a loving father , a naggy yaya,
a sister that love me in her heart ,
and a brother dont show his love easily.
A good family , and a ugly daughter like me
I dont know what to do right now.
Moving forward also cannot ,
Taking a step back also not.
Standing at the same point ,
i am suffering !
I hope i will know the method of solving this problem.
So this problem wont surround me anymore..
Thank you !

OWNED BY: Sandy Lim
STONE CRACKED: 4 July '95
SCHOOL(s): KHS'02-07 / MPSS'08-'12 / TP'13-'16
COLOUR OF MY LIFE: White and Black.

Sandy is MY name :D !
I am just ranting all my unhappiness and frustration about my life.
Of course it will not only be negative sides.
Life is full of challenges.
TAKE IT, LEARN IT and REMEMBER IT.
Enjoy if you like it or LEAVE if you hate it.
Simplicity is the only rule in my game.
It's all my personal feelings and I am not pin-pointing anyone.
SO DON'T FEEL OFFENDED.
This is all about it.
Admires, Loves, Hatred, Jealous, Dislikes!
Saranghaeyo, Sukidayo, Wo Ai NI, I love you.
Komowo, Arigato, Xie Xie,Thank you.

I ♡ Ft island & ARASHI & KinKi Kids & Yabu Kota!

WHAT KEEPS MY LIFE GOING: FOODS. DRAMAS. SLEEP. FRIENDS.
WHO MOTIVATES ME: FT ISLAND & ARASHI & KINKI KIDS & YABU KOTA.
HOW I SURVIVE: CHIONG DRAMAS OVERNIGHT. BAD-MOUTHING PPL I HATE WITH MY BESITES. TALK ABOUT LIFE RANDOMLY.



SU-KA:
♥ ARASHI
♥ FT Island & WON BIN
♥ KINKI KIDS
♥ YABU KOTA
♥ HCM, MY CRUSH
♥ Good things to happen
♥ Spending quality time with my HAO PENG YOU
♥ Doing what I like & having time for myself


BUAY SONG:
X When idiots talk bad about my idols
X When things do not happen as I wish
X People who literally ignored me
X Taking in all those shitty things by myself
X Double face BASTARD. Bootlickers. FAKERS.
X Separations

These are my LIKES and DISLIKES :D


This world is so amazing!
BUT, virtual world seems to be more REAL than real world.
Everyone is putting a mask over their face to fit in this society.
No one is ever going to show you their real side anymore.
Be strong.
That's the only way to survive in this ruined world.