Friday, August 24, 2012 @ 7:51 AM | 0 notes
After all those heartbreaking moments, i finally had an ease in my mind.
I dont want to remember those sad times, so i will just skip this chapter
in my memories.
Things really dont come out as you wished.
My only comment is dont have high hopes so you wont have bigger
disappointment. Life will be easier that way, i think .
Sometimes , we must go easy on ourselves.
Not pushing ourselves to a higher level where we cannot cope.
Know your limit and that's it.
It is simple but no one knows it.
I am having all my low tides now.
Dont know when will be my high tides.
After those series of incident , i have learnt to put down.
You have to put down something so you can move on.
There is no point of thinking something that is already done.
You cant undone it.
Maybe i have high hopes on myself.
In the end , things doesnt turn out that way.
So it is better for things to be natural.
I am relieve now. I cannot say i had already put down.
The scene is still tangling in my mind.
Since the things had happened, then it is my fate.
Through this , i had found out i am so stubborn.
To be so firm in my decision.
Persevere so no one can change your mind.
And that determination helped me , i am having what i want.
Stress is slowly forming as time goes by.
I dont know whether i can handle it.
I have to try or how would i know?
Die die must try , this is what my father always tells me.
You will never know if you dont try.
So now , i am trying !
Hoping i am able to cope and handle it.
This is my decision , i cannot moan.
This is my choice , i cannot regret.
SO BUCK UP !
This is the real me ..... I wont give up so easily.
I have not found the real self of me , but i am in the process of searching.
Kay , no more heartwrenching stuffs.
Today is my English oral ,
wonder have i pass through ?
I flunked my oral.
Okay , this is me.
Always have mistakes.. If i didnt make any mistakes,
then you should know this is not me !
During the waiting time outside,
D , L and me are engrossed in a "park" conversation.
Taiji in chinese , what is it in English ?
Chinses Martial Arts , haha , no !
It is taichi ! That is wushu.
Fengshui ?
Wind water.... !!!
Hhahahah , that's funny.
Had a great time with them even though i have not even
spoken a word to L !
CM is totally adorable.
L said CM said that the Malay examiner is pretty.
I stretched my hand and see, i agreed too !
Heheh , L made fun of CM and made all of us to laugh !
Joker, indeed.
CM is damn cute. He is the first to be tested. He sat at the round table
and kept wiping his head.
Then we guessed that the oral is difficult.
Hahah , next is I, he had the same action.
But when they left , I said it is easy.
Then i tell D , it may be easy for him , not us.
Hahahahaha !
After the oral for cm , cm had to sit at the waiting place.
The way he stretched his body and looking around
once again make me to like him !!!
Oh , in the morning.
We had a short session with mrs doris lee.
L sat directly acrossed me , cm is beside him.
I am freaked out the moment they sat there.
Since then , i dare not raise my head.
Then the teacher asked me to read.
I am so afraid ...
But luckily, i went through it smoothly !
Then i went home.
I forgot the question for picture discussion so i asked CM through twitter.
WHAT ?! HE REPLY ME !
Hhahahahahahaha , he replied me !
So he is still approachable !
CM , you are the best except you talked
to E , WH and HT and not me !
I had this part only.
Overall , i still like you !
Just waiting for your respond....
JAJAJAJAJAKAKAKAKAKAK !!!!
HHEHEHEHE , CM , ILY !
Thursday, August 9, 2012 @ 11:23 AM | 0 notes
Sometimes , in life , things happen unpredictably.
And what all we can do is to accept it.
We will never know what will happen the next second.
Life is amazing in my point of views.
Firstly , it is unfair.
Secondly , it is unpredictable.
There are people who is rich and people who is poor.
People who are pretty and people who are ugly.
People who have a better family and people with broken family.
Today , 9 aug , i had received a DAMN shocking news.
My SJAB junior , Roofiya , had passed away.
I dont know how to react when i first knew it.
I was jokingly saying "is she dead or what?" , before i asked Chenchuan
on twitter what happened to her.
I think my crow mouth works sometimes.
And my cousin is just right beside me.
I lost a person who i knew.
Life is funny , huh?
They take people just as wish they want.
Did LIFE actually knows someone who will be sad
after it took someone from her/ him?
I know , this is life.
Everyone has to go.
But please, why so young??
How would people taste those bitter, sweet moments?
Those ups and downs if you take them away before the time.
I may not feel as sad as those who are close to her.
But as someone who she knew,
this news is a heartbreaking one.
I know now. Cherish those who are beside you now.
Dont wait till the day when she/he left you.
Is that right ??
Yesterday , i just celebrate National day with my school.
And today , is this damn news?
Kay , sadness aside. But how?
Someone just left us. What am i supposed to do now?
I dont know how!
Can those sad feelings stop coming out?
So i can write what is funny ....?
Kay , have to stop.
Needa stop....
STOP.
Now , happy times...
Ytd , I felt my class is united at least once.
We had to wear red t-shirt.
Then , where we slowly gathered at the assembly area
which is outside the library.
I noticed almost whole class didnt wear it.
Except for few.
Later, we stood in two lines, girls in front , boys behind.
Singing the national athem.
WH always squeeze my hand.
She have no idea how pain it is..
Escpecially her long fingernails kept scratching me.
After that , we walked up to the hall.
First off , we said the old grandma stories.
As we are too far , we cant see anything from the screen.
So i asked E to take her spects to see.
She wave her hand hardly in return.
Unluckily , this action is seen by Ms Leo.
then she said : '' Wah , E , you are so high " in chinese.
Haahahaha , sorry ah , i dont mean it!
We saw Ms lau in red dress.
Wh then sarcasticly say she is having new year.
I laughed.
As the school noise volume getting louder,
ms lau went around to scold people.
I say ms lau , dont be so angry during NewYear.
Or else will have bad omen.
CM is sitting behind me , making me to feel so uneasy.
Luckily, i brought things to play.
My little tigers.
Plus E's pencil box..
Erm , it is to kill boredom.
During the skit played by someone-i-dont-know,
we felt so bored.
We , 5 girls and the 4 boys.
WH and i concentrating on the toys we brought.
Playing like crazy.
Lastly, they gave out chocolates and lollipop and
finally we can go home.
What is comical here is Mr ng.
He is annoucing the class who can go home.
He then stop for awhile, thinking whether is it 5A or 5B?
And he open his mouth , 5BBBB !
5A was groaning.
And i said , i know we not 5a , we are 5c.
But let us go home.
There is still 5a ...
The sec 3 sitting in front of us
were wondering why is this class not moving?
Then , our teacher asked us to go home.
Ironic huh ??
Kay , that's all.
Emotions is getting confused.
