Friday, July 20, 2012 @ 9:54 AM | 0 notes
As day passes, the feeling in me is getting stronger.
What can i do ?
Been crying everyday because of you.
Just the thought of parting from you ,
makes me wanna return to the beginning of
where we met.
I will try all my best to stop the feelings from developing.
Then , i will not as sad as i am now.
Why?
The person i like never knows my feeling ,
and separate like nothing had happened at all.
Am i really such a failure?
Letting go , is it so difficult?
Am i invisible?
How come you dont see me?
Five of us, there is five?
Is it four to you ?
What did i do wrong ?
I kept probing myself,
did something went wrong between us?
It is so sudden , you stopped talking to me.
You know i am sad.
I dont know what to do.
Moving one step up , i afraid you will avoid me.
Moving one step down , i cannot let go.
What am i supposed to do ?
Can you at least teach me before you go?
All you know is her ,
everything you asked is from her.
I am really nothing to you.
Is it?
If it is so , cant we even be friends?
Friends talk , dont they ?
Am i your enemy ? or what ?
I really dont know.
I am not clever ,
if you dont give me the answer,
how am i going to solve this question?
You know , all because of you.
You !!
I am losing litres of water.
As a friend, no , classmate,
dont make me feel like i am out.
I know , you like her.
If it is so , all i can do is to wish the best for you.
Force doesnt bring happiness, i know.
But you , making me in a difficult spot.
When i want to forget you , you trigger my feelings.
When i want to get closer to you , you ignore my feelings.
I am not your toys...
There is a limit for me to tolerate.
I am afraid one day , i may be gonecase.
Forgetting you , will it solve all problems?
I dont know...
How i wish you were at my side, but it is all my own thinking.
You beside me , IMPOSSIBLE.
Our conversation cannot even made up to 3 sentences.
How will you at my side.
I wanted to ask the guys.
What does it mean when a guy who always talks to you suddenly
stop talking to you. and instead , he talks to her best friends ?
I am stucked.
FOOLISH IDIOT , I AM !
Miss you.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012 @ 4:48 AM | 0 notes
Hahahahaha...
What is this confused , mixed feelings in me now?
I am happy , excited , and at the same time ,
i am abit disappointed.
It felt so different from last year.
Last year, i am angry because my bdae is such in a mess.
I do not have a bdae cake , and have porridge for dinner.
But most , most make me angry is i didnt received presents.
How come i dont feel angry when i also dont have presents this year?
Ah , my heart became bigger?
Aish , dont play larh... Hahaha !
Lol , XD!
I am abit disappointed because the person i am waiting for ,
didnt wish my happy bdae on my fb.
He didnt ! After retweeting on twitter,
he offline.
What mah ? This is what?
I am waiting for your bdae wish ,
and you just offline like this?
And worse still , during reccess,
he talk to a girl happily,
in the presence of me !
I almost want to die !
Did you ever think of my feeling?
It hurts!
Luckily , there is my friends.
If the room only have 3 of us , You , me and D !
I will sure go out of the classroom.
I cannot stand seeing you talking to a girl so happily.
Maybe i am jealous. I dont know.
Today is my bdae, a happy bdae also dont have.
Still make me sad!!
But i am happy because you talked to me.
I meant a small joke , maybe!
The donation envelope,
how can dont take?
And you told me not to take.
Hahaa, it is so funny?
Lol... Huh !
It had been a long time since we cracked a
small jokes between each other.
It happen like this.
He wants to hand me the donation envelope.
As i am going to take over,
he said , actually it is fine not taking it.
then i say 'really?'
and he said 'yes'
so i said 'okay'
at last , they say everyone had to take one.
So he still handed me one , forgetting there is still wh !
Hahaha , cute cm.
But i am still angry you for not wishing me happy bdae.
On fb or twitter, it is fine.
You doesnt need to say it out!
Is it so difficult for you ?
Just take it as a bdae present for me.
I had been waiting for so long.
and we might not meet each other after this year.
It is the most sad part.
And i dont wish to think about me.
Whatever it is , happy or disappointed.
Wish myself a happy birthday !! :DD !
