Friday, August 31, 2018 @ 7:21 AM
| 0 notesIt is 31 Aug 2018.
I have a few thoughts of my head right now.
As daylight turn to night, one after another.
Months goes by, turns to years.
Age just a number adding onward.
The older I grows, the more I cannot stand being alive.
When living becomes a torture.
Nothing much changes even though I have put in so much efforts.
Tell me what is the real meaning of "your effort pays off"?
I am just tired of every single thing in this world.
The thought of die is too real.
A life full of tiredness and fear, what else can I expect?
I am not being negative,
It is just that I can't cope with the burden I am facing currently.
Why is just some people could not see the hard work we put in?
Are they blind or something?
Did we offend them in some way?
Kindly speak out if we did.
Stop mental and physically torturing us.
Just say out and we can solve the root of the problem.
If you said that we love you not enough,
Just take a look at yourself.
In what way we do not love you?
Afraid of you being hungry, we always buy the food you wanted.
When you do not have money, we would offer a hand to help.
In return, what do you give us?
This continuous unhappiness you brought here?
I am really feeling super worthless being unable to change this.
You just love to provoke everyone in the family,
if I am the reason that you do this,
just took it out on me.
Stop bringing so much problems back home.
Enough is enough.
Turning on the music so loudly,
bathing so long,
wasting water & tissues,
DO YOU REALLY THINK THIS IS A RICH FAMILY?
Spend every single penny you earns and turn to us when you left nothing,
Wasting as much water as you can when the bills is so expensive.
Please kindly take some time and think back.
We do not love you enough?
Or we love you too much that you can do whatever you like?
Stop putting the blame on others when the root of every problem is YOU!
You have just successfully make my life being like a shit.
Why do I have to suffer this much when you are enjoying all the time?
I do not understand why,
I really cannot understand.
Hate this life honestly.
We all have problems at work, but is that a good reason for you to bring your temper back home?
I was scolded all the time at work, no matter who the fuck they are,
they just think they have the right to scold.
And the IMPORTANT PART is they were at fault in the first place.
ALL THESE SHITS IS REALLY ENOUGH.
I AM TOO TIRED TO DEAL ALL THESE SHITS!
You said 90s could not take hardship.
SO WHAT IF WE FUCKING COULD NOT?
Tell me what to do when problems are EVERYWHERE.
Even the whole world is attached, I will not be stupid to get a boyfriend to add on my burden.
I am tired as fuck already.
Humans are the problem of everything,
it is good if I can let them all vanish.
I am mentally, physically, emotionally and financially tired.
TIRED OF THIS WORLD.
This is me ^&^
OWNED BY: Sandy Lim
STONE CRACKED: 4 July '95
SCHOOL(s): KHS'02-07 / MPSS'08-'12 / TP'13-'16
COLOUR OF MY LIFE: White and Black.
Sandy is MY name :D !
I am just ranting all my unhappiness and frustration about my life.
Of course it will not only be negative sides.
Life is full of challenges.
TAKE IT, LEARN IT and REMEMBER IT.
Enjoy if you like it or LEAVE if you hate it.
Simplicity is the only rule in my game.
It's all my personal feelings and I am not pin-pointing anyone.
SO DON'T FEEL OFFENDED.
This is all about it.
Admires, Loves, Hatred, Jealous, Dislikes!
Saranghaeyo, Sukidayo, Wo Ai NI, I love you.
Komowo, Arigato, Xie Xie,Thank you.
I ♡ Ft island & ARASHI & KinKi Kids & Yabu Kota!
WHAT KEEPS MY LIFE GOING: FOODS. DRAMAS. SLEEP. FRIENDS.
WHO MOTIVATES ME: FT ISLAND & ARASHI & KINKI KIDS & YABU KOTA.
HOW I SURVIVE: CHIONG DRAMAS OVERNIGHT. BAD-MOUTHING PPL I HATE WITH MY BESITES. TALK ABOUT LIFE RANDOMLY.
This is my life. Who cares?
SU-KA:
♥ ARASHI
♥ FT Island & WON BIN
♥ KINKI KIDS
♥ YABU KOTA
♥ HCM, MY CRUSH
♥ Good things to happen
♥ Spending quality time with my HAO PENG YOU
♥ Doing what I like & having time for myself
BUAY SONG:
X When idiots talk bad about my idols
X When things do not happen as I wish
X People who literally ignored me
X Taking in all those shitty things by myself
X Double face BASTARD. Bootlickers. FAKERS.
X Separations
These are my LIKES and DISLIKES :D
My thoughts on life.
This world is so amazing!
BUT, virtual world seems to be more REAL than real world.
Everyone is putting a mask over their face to fit in this society.
No one is ever going to show you their real side anymore.
Be strong.
That's the only way to survive in this ruined world.
BEST FRIENDS:
I am afraid that no one would really cares me genuinely.
LUCKILY, I have many friends who would stand by me all the times.
There's this friend that knows all my secrets.
We've been through so much together.
Life is full of ups and downs.
She would be my pillar of strength whenever I feel down.
It is the likewise at her side.
We even thought of marrying each other. That's weird?
That's how close we are!
Friendship are not just you and I.
We fought. We had cold wars. We dislikes many things about each other.
We laughed. We cried. We did many crazy things together.
Without speaking, we could still read each other's mind.
We aren't friends. We aren't sisters.
We are just comfortable being with each other.
Humans need support from others. You can't live on your own.
Thus, it's good to know there is a friend for you all the time.
Thank you for being my bestie though I am a lousy person.
Definition of true friends:
I don't need words of encouragement when I feel loss of hopes.
Just sit beside me and enjoy the scenery with me.
That will be my best support.
Muaccks, MY LOVELY FRIENDS.
HOPES NEVER DIE:
~ SIMPLE LIFE.
~ EVERYTHING will turn out GOOD.
~ IDOLS MERCHANDISE, DVDS etc.
~ Find my interests and work on it.
~ JAPAN TOUR.
~ A person that REALLY understandd me.
