Saturday, May 28, 2011 @ 12:12 PM | 0 notes
After hearing my sister said that
cm do not want to continue Sec5,
it broke my heart.
i feel like the days are shorten.
5 months!
No is 4 months!
I dont want to be separated from him.
I want to see him.
i want to watch his actions.
i think after this holidays,
my eyes will always look at him.
Today, i went to teo heng with
my sister and meijun.
We had half an hour left before the thing start.
So we walk around the shopping mall.
in my mind, it is all about cm.
shopping with him,
singing with him,
eating with him,
walking with himm.
Everything with him...
But he is not staying for sec5.
And i am going to stay.
Why?
Why like that?
i cant see him for next year.
i feel that if i still dun confess to him.
I had no more chance.
this is what i think i will text him.
' if i still dun tell you my feelings,
i am afraid i had no more chance to tell you,
and i dun want regret for not telling you now,
actually .......... i like you,
but i hope you wont avoid me,
as we had only a little time left,
i hope you will act like you dunno,
and let me see you for the next few months,
before i am separated from you... '
but i do not have the courage, i dun have...
HOW?
i want to be with cm for the next few months!
how wish i have the courage to tell cm now.
I really want to know his feeling to me
before he go next year.
And i really dun want to be regretted for not telling him.
In tvs, they always say confess now before it is too late.
Had to try unless you dun want to be with him.
Say is always easy but do is difficult.
Hearing FTISLAND confess,
i hope he know what i feel for him now.
NO MORE TIME ALREADY,
he have to know that i like him and
give me a reply.
I dun mind being rejected but i mind being regretted.
I wont cry now even if he said he dun like me.
Cause i know his feelings...
Please help me this time.
You didnt help me during MID YEAR!!!!
Pleaseee. I hope he knew already,
i hope he can see through by my actionsss.
CM, I REALLY LIKE YOU BUT IF YOU DUNNO.
I REALLY DUN HAVE THE COURAGE TO TELL YOU.
How. What am i supposed to do now???
CMMMM, I DUN WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME.
I WANT TO WATCH YOU FROM FAR, FOREVER.
SEEING YOU MAKES ME FEEL BETTER.
I want to say ,
i always say ftisland infront of you.
is not because i wanna show off,
or telling you that KPOPs is much better than you.
i want to see if you are jealous because of me.
and i avoid you because i dun dare to talk to you.
i dun dare to look at you because i feel
i am ugly, do not have the right to see you.
i dun dare talk to you, because i afraid to show you my teeth.
i dun dare near you because i dun want you to know
my ugly side.
I know i changed alot from sec2.
as sec2 , i dun like you as much as i like you now.
Now, i can say i love you instead of i like you.
I dare to talk to you in sec2 because my results are good,
so i feel i had the rights to talk to you.
now , my results like SHIT,
so i think i dun have the rights to talk to you.
CM, please hint me whether you like me or not.
I really want to know...
I want to knoww.
i am trying so hard to see how you feel but i still dunno.
Whenever i saw you with other girls,
i will be jealous without knowing.
i think i really likes you.
HCM, you should know how i feel.
it is really hard being one sided love.
I am suffering alot.
One sided love is not easy.
i wont have one sided love again after i let go this feeling.
I make sure i wont.
it is pain, hard and difficult.
not knowing what the other half is thinking.
you like him and he dun like you, will make myself
feel useless and stupid.
everytime seeing him with other girls.
i will jealous.
i want to be someone dont have all this kind of feelings.
so i can be carefree.
CM, you been broking my heart since january till now!
I really cant stand anymore.
Till i have that courage,
i will confess to you right away.
for now, i will continue to act as if i dun care.
I will act i am your classmate only.
And i will try to let off this feeling before you go.
SANDY, YOU CAN DO IT!
