Saturday, October 17, 2015 @ 8:09 AM | 0 notes
GOOD EVENING!
It's not in the morning but the opposite. NIGHTZZZ~~!
-ICHI-
I am dying cause I am super tired from intern and part time job!
Guess what? I am going to MALAYSIA tomorrow!
Hopefully, I am still alive after tomorrow!
I really cannot withstand people who complains tired.
It's not like I won't complain.
Just don't show me how tired you are when I am more tired!
I am struggling my own tasks too.
WORK, INTERN, SCHOOL. YOU THINK I AM NOT TIRED?
Yes, I only work one day there. BUT I AM NOT RESTING AT HOME
FOR THE OTHER SIX DAYS, PEOPLE!
We are of the same age so come on!
I know you are tired but if you are going to show others that you are tired.
Won't you think the rest will become more tired because of your atmosphere?
You are so young, I think you should have more energy than this.
HOUSEWORKS, YES. ALL OF US DO HOUSEWORK.
In addition, I am not energetic. I am dying too.
BUT IF I EVER SHOW MY TIRENESS, I GUESS I WILL BECOME MORE
TIRED AT WORK.
Life is like this and worst of all, you are in SINGAPORE.
The work life here is not what you imagine. Take it or leave it, up to you.
We are all here to work. SO DONT EVER SHOW ME THAT ATTITUDE EVER AGAIN.
We are not more relax than you either.
SO LIVE LIKE YOUR AGE.
-NI-
I guess I am really not born to be girl.
I AM NOT INTERESTED IN COSMETICS, HANDBAGS... ETC!
I thought I will slowly like to be pretty when I get older but
that does not seems to be the case.
I am so tom boyish....
Hence, I don't think I am able to find a boyfriend.
BUT WAIT!
Though I am tom boyish, I am straight. I LOVE MEN!
hahahahahahaa....
-SAN-
Sometimes, I really don't understand why am I working so hard on something that
wont happen at all...
I studied but my results remain to be poor.
I exercise but my weight didn't show any changes.
I tried hard to do my best at everything but everything seems to be nothing.
I REALLY CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY I AM SO FAIL.
For whom I striving so hard for?
For what I am enduring for?
For when am I going to see success?
I really don't know.
I FELT LIKE GIVING UP TOO.
Its not that I can continue giving my best on something.
I wish to give up too.
I want to give up too.
BUT CAN I?
Do you know how hard is it to let go of something???
I am not that hardworking...
I am not that smart.
If I give up halfway, aren't I a loser?
That's why I endured.
-YON-
GUESS WHAT.
After like about a year of blank conversation,
I talked to him yesterday. 16/10/15
It had been a long time since I talked to him.
I guess you know who is that him le ba.
Oh gosh... like seriously.
But if without my work, I wouldn't have the dare to even message him.
I was like just missing him last few weeks
and had that urge to talk to him.
Luckily, I had or else I could not hold it back anymore.
THAT FEELING IS SO UNDESCRIBABLE.
I don't know what I am feeling too.
I was happy to had a conversation with him - someone I had or have a crush for so long.
not sure if I am still liking him...
If I am, why it does not feel like in secondary school anymore??
Do I still like him? Please tell me NO.
I used two to three years to put down.
OMG, PLEASE SAY NO!
I don't want like someone who wont like me anymore.
It is hard to control ... hide my feelings !!!
I WANT TO MOVE ON SIA!
Okayy.. it happened like this.
I was in a dilemma on what gift to give for males for Christmas.
This is a project handed over to me in my intern.
MY FIRST PROJECT so I don't wanna ruin it.
Thus, I think I can ask him since I think he is approachable anyway.
I decided to message him after lunch when the office is empty.
I didn't expect him to reply me that fast as he is working too.
I just asked him what should I get?
then he replied he don't know.
I answered: Its okay, Do you wear bracelets?
He said no.
I thought he will end the conversation but he continued.
OMG OMG OMG!
He asked where I intern at.
I replied insurance company without asking further questions.
Then he continued with the place he intern.
I DIDNT ASK THAT....
All I am interested is in the gifts. I AM SORRY boy!
He went on and tell me that there are many chiobus in his company.
DID I WANT TO KNOW???
Boy... That's not my question!
He was so cute that I wanna beat him!
If you are not interested in relationship , then don't tell me all these.
ARE YOU REFERRING ME NOT TO HABOUR ANY OTHER FEELING FOR YOU?
I WONT!!!!!
I AM ALSO NOT INTERESTED IN RELATIONSHIP NOW.
MY LIFE IS FULL OF SHIT WHICH I HAVE NOT CLEARED.
All I want now to graduate and go TAIWAN with my friends.
THEN FIND A DECENT JOB.
After that, see I wanna to continue on going to university.
BUT HAVE TO SEE RESULTS TOO.
I guess I wont be able to go with my current results.
Thus, I am not expecting more.
If can, I would like to study other areas like interior design.
I go work first la then consider what is the best for me.
THUS, I HAVE NO TIME TO THINK OF HAVING A BOYFRIEND TOO.
I think he think too much.
But he is being kind to continue to conversation.
As I will feel sad if he stop with a I don't know.
SO THANKS. HCM!
LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND!
I AM SO OVER YOU HAHA!
END WITH THIS HAPPY FEELINGS.
HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP DOESNT DIES TOO!
