Thursday, May 10, 2012 @ 6:16 AM | 0 notes
Putong putong !!
Heartbeat always beat damn fast when i am with him.
What happen to me ?
Did i like him more this time ?
Aish , being in love is nice.
But then , it is also not nice.
I am seeing him from far,
did he know?
I am suffering from keeping my distance from him ,
did he realised?
I am thinking of him all the time ,
did he feel it?
I am doing all sorts of things,
yet he knew nothing.
It is hard to like someone.
Especially being one sided love.
I dont know what are you thinking.
I dont know how you feel.
I wont know it unless you tell me.
We both are like strangers even though we knew each other
for five years.
Time flies, but my feeling didnt change abit at all.
And how can i expect a stranger to like me ?
I am mad , insane , gonecase in someways.
Whenever i am watching dramas, when romantic scenes
on screen , i will imagine the couple is both of us.
Nice dreams , Nice thinking , but will never happen.
Everytime thinking of you , being with you , i am so happy.
Then when the sudden thought came by, made me to be realistic.
Telling myself , no this wont happen in anyways, you wont like me
you know it is heartbrokening. PAIN.
Being in this pain all the times.
Being in the same class, wanting to forget you.
Forgetting you became an impossible thing to do.
Hoping those feelings will vanish one day ,
but it become stronger as days went by.
I am seeing you , i am with you, i am almost near you.
i cannot have you , i cannot tell you.
I am afraid if i confess to you,
you will avoid me even more.
Now , we are not even talking.
Even is , it is through passing by my friends.
If i really tell you i have feeling for you,
i may not be able to see you again.
Plus i dont have any courage to open my mouth ,
confessing my love...
Maybe it is better if i shut my mouth up.
I am wondering...
What the hell happen to us?
You talked to me for the first , second and third year...
Everything changed since last year.
I want to know what happen.
But something in my body is holding me back.
Whenever you are in my sight , i will move further away..
Hoping you wont get near me.
This is not me...
You are first guy i am afraid.
Afraid in the way
I cant get near you.
Not because you are fierce.
Not because you are handsome.
Just because i am afraid the words will slip off my mouth.
I cannot say , it will let us become more unrelated.
From friends become classmates become classmates that dont talk.
It is totally two people from two different world.
I know i am ridiculous.
Liking you but cannot tell you.
People always say if you like someone , must tell that someone,
or else you will regret it later.
I dont dare , i dont know.
I dont know your feelings towards me ,
so i am hesitating.
whether to tell you or not.
Can you at least tell me ,
i am your friend or a stranger to you?
If i know that you dont like me earlier,
maybe the feelings wont be at a state where
you say forget you cannot forget.
Tell me , please.
let me know so i wont regret.
THANKS...
