Tuesday, August 9, 2011 @ 11:11 AM | 0 notes
Nowadays , my blog is written all over by my feelings
instead of what is happening on that day.
Hahas, blog is the place i show my feelings.
As what i say , no one is going to listen.
after writing on the blog , i feel much better.
and after talking to janet.
cause i find no one understand me as much as she did.
haix, this world is changing.
people around me also changed.
I dont know is i changed or they.
i really cant understand them.
they have the thinking are totally different from mine.
Hehes, maybe i am too lazy to see what is around me.
I really feel damn lost nowadays.
Being crazy over Ftisland , i am not so.
Studying like mad , i am not.
My heart is totally to him , not really.
Say the truth, after listening
the conversation between him and wh.
i really have no hope of him liking me.
on monday , national day celebration,
he keep looking at wh , makes me feel
i should forget him.
Okay, fine.
I will forget him and focus on my studies.
Sandy , arent you pro at acting you dont like him?
then do it now.
make him feel you dont even care for him.
If you like me , please tell me.
If not , please let me go.
If you like her , please tell her.
Dont make my heart feel so pain,
everytime i see you and her being so close.
I will grateful to you next time.. for letting me go.
you know what hurts the most?
is to see the person you loved loving your BEST friend.
so please, if you dont like me.
dont ever like my best friend.
i know i am selfish.
but it really hurts when i see you liking her.
it is pain. you know the feeling?
if you really like her, then i really cant do anything
but to let go.
but i really wish to leave that school if this happens.
no girls can see their admire liking their best friend
and act like nothing happen.
thats why i am stunned when they ask
how do you react if you bias like your friend.
i wanted to reply , change bias.
but thats really cant happen.
when you like a person,
you cant change so fast.
but just to end this feeling quickly.
i hope faster end secondary school,
so whoever you like,
i wont feel the pain anymore.
end, it has all ended.
cause i know the person you like now,
will never be me.
and i am not that lucky to have someone
i like to like me.
I must learn to let go,
cause i know things wont remain the same.
I must learn to be strong,
so the next feelings i had,
i wont be in such a pain.
I really need to stop liking you.
i know already.
girl's sixth sense is always accurate.
so i am very sure you like her.
Sandy , it is time to let go.
Let go!! let it go!!
i dont know why,
one sided love why so pain?
Not being able to tell him you like him ,
and you have to bear seeing him liking others.
this world is not fairy tales,
so this kind of things wont happen.......
Give up bah, let it go!
Forget him ... Why is he in my class?
or else i already forgot him.
Hwaiting.. forgetting him now is much better than when he
likes your friend. So jiayous in forgetting him.
and iin studies.
the prelims this thursday.
i really wanted to get good result.
but every time i said this ,
my results suck.
so i am not going to say anymore.
hehe.
