LIKES VS RESULTS
Friday, March 25, 2011 @ 3:50 AM | 0 notes
Anyong!
spash my feelings all over the blog!
Yesterday, i had a feeling that cm wants to get near me.
firstly, he went in front of me and asked me and weehiang
what to do for eng.
Secondly, he asked weehiang for tissues, like want to near us.
lastly, he went to my behind as my behind is yunying!
hehes, and i found out that he asked where i am for two time.
First is around jan, when wh walk alone at the spiral staircase,
he asked weehiang where i am.
Second is when elissa and i went to change , he asked weehiang where
i am in the class.
but i do not know whether if it is true, as it is from weehiang!
But i only knows that i am close with Cm in anyway!
He makes fun of me before.
First is when i first took the walkaton card, i ask him to donate,
instead donating, he took my card and run around the class.
Second is he called me shu le cai ying, as my name is shuying,
and i lose to him in test, and win him in overall.
third is when sec2 , we went to seaside, weehiang and i rented a
bicycle , he called my name alot of times.
Fourth, he lent my correction tape, i took Shamini's, he said dun want
and only wanted mine, thats the first time weehiang said cm like me.
Fifth, Cm and i are F&N partner in sec 1, but he likes TH, so i just
stand aside and see him like another girl. But now, he is single, maybe!
Sixth, he kept asking where i am!
Too many fate, but i think i took it as granted, as
i do not reply him when he talks to me!
But i wish that he will knows that not i dun want talk to him,
i cannot talk to him, i do not dare to see or face him!
i do not dare to see his eyes.
I wanted his cares, his person.
but i always not taking the first step.
Everytime i see TH, i felt like a failure,
that cm will not like me this ugly person.
And i think cm will hate me.
These days will continued to when?
Can we just put a full stop there?
Whether is it a good results or bad result?
I cannot take it anymore when i do not dare talk to him!
I WANT TO TALK TO HIM!
I WANT TO SEE HIM EYES TO EYES!
I WANT TO LISTEN THAT HE LIKES ME TOO!
it is possible, i have to tell this to myself,
being self confident, everything will be alright!
But i am scared of my AMATHS ENGLISH AND CHEM!
i felt that my results are dropping again!
losing to weehiang totally, yet she says she is worse than me.
i do not know why somethimes i feel like hating weehiang.
she heck care my feeling,
she said i like to take old things and compare.
she said i always lie,
she always emphasis that i like cm in front of cm,
i should have not told her, so it wont be so obvious!
I WISH MY RESULTS CAN BE LIKE LAST TIME IN SEC1 AND 2
AND I WISH I CAN GO INTO TOP TEN!
I WISH MY RELATIONSHIP CAN BE SMOOTH.
AND I WISH TOMORROW COMPETITION, MY TEAM CAN WIN SOMETHING!
I DO NOT LIKE THE FEELING OF LOSING! I WANT TO WIN,
WITH MY OWN HARD WORK.
CAN I BE HARD WORKING AGAIN?
NOT BEING LAZY WHEN DOING HOMEWORK?
